It's always there. Just sitting in the corner waiting to rear it's ugly head. Looming, like a thick fog.
I'm having a difficult day. I'm terrified. I am obsessively checking and re-checking. It's there, I know it is. I can't see it and what's even worse than that is, I can do nothing about it.
Moyamoya sucks. Can I give it back?
I wish I could could fix it all. I wish I could return Malachi's hand function so he wouldn't get so frustrated. I wish I could say he would never have another stroke. I wish he didn't have to have MAJOR surgery...twice.
It's not fair. But we were still chosen. He was chosen. I will make the best of this. Most of the time. But today, I just need to be angry. Tomorrow, I will go on fighting.
Moyamoya Sucks.
Malachi will BEAT Moyamoya!
- Blessed with Boys
- This blog was started to keep friends and family up to date on our journey to become Foster Parents. We never knew that amazing journey God would take us on. We were willing to follow God with our eyes closed and our hearts open. He blessed us with our son Malachi. Just recently we were blessed with another little boy, Elijah. This is our life, the good, the bad and the ugly.
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3 comments:
Sorry you're having such a hard day. Distract yourself - Take the kiddos out for ice cream or something :)
Moyamoya does suck, and you have every right to be angry sometimes!
So sorry you are having a tough day. You have the right to be angry. I pray that you have a better day tomorrow...
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