Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Sigh...

My last post has created quit the ruckus. I've gotten countless e-mails, phone calls and text messages from people worried that they were the ones I was talking about in my post. Sigh. My intention was not to create controversy or to speak ill of anyone. We are all humans and we all make mistakes, trust me, I know that all to well. I am, by no means, perfect. I also know that my family and friends are not either and at times we are all hurt by those closest to us. It happens, people talk and we move on. I assume that will happen in this situation as well and my goal is that forgiveness happens sooner rather than later. Please understand my thought process on this. I need time. Time to process my feelings and time to "cool down." As I said before, I am not perfect and I tend to fly off the handle quickly. I am working on that and part of me learning to control my reactions is allowing myself time to process. Thus my last post. I expect people to confront me when I have hurt them especially since hurting others is never my intention. I also want to confront others who have hurt me but I want to be sure I do it in a loving manner. So, if you think I was referring to you in my last post, perhaps we need to talk. Lets go out to dinner or get coffee, lets discuss and understand. Perhaps we both need an attitude adjustment. I know that I don't want a long list of excuses but rather a simple apology for hurt feelings. Then we can move on.

Now that thats over. Lets move on...to BOSTON. Yes, Boston is looking more and more like a possibility each day. Malachi will be needing surgery in June and Boston, for those of you that have been living under a rock for the past few weeks, is our number one choice to do the surgery. There are still quit a few road blocks in the way but we believe Boston is where we are supposed to be. We will continue to pray for God's will to be done and that we will accept whatever that is.

3 comments:

Lacey said...

Since having Jax my feelings have been much more "on the surface" I fly of the handle fast and get my feelings hurt easy.
Praying that Boston works out. I love that hospital!

mary said...

Dealing with all the feelings that go along with this very rare disease is so hard. I felt very alone with literally no one who really knew what we were experiencing. Waking up everyday and checking our little girl to be sure everything was "working" to assure us she had not had another stroke. It's very stressful. I hope that Bsoton works out. Kathleen had her surgery with Dr. Scott in Boston. He is absolutely one of the best! He is considered one of very few experts in this disease. His whole team is amazing and very caring. They treat the whole family. Please feel free to e-mail me if I can help with any questions.....
Mary Grace
mgrace5@nycap.rr.com

Tara said...

I know what you were talking about in your last post. I was so disappointed that our pastor didn't even come to the hospital to pray for Eon (and us) before or during his heart surgery. Unreal. I will pray that you will have grace to forgive those who should've been there for you, too! Continuing to pray for your sweet boy!