Thursday, April 29, 2010

Looming

It's always there. Just sitting in the corner waiting to rear it's ugly head. Looming, like a thick fog.

I'm having a difficult day. I'm terrified. I am obsessively checking and re-checking. It's there, I know it is. I can't see it and what's even worse than that is, I can do nothing about it.

Moyamoya sucks. Can I give it back?

I wish I could could fix it all. I wish I could return Malachi's hand function so he wouldn't get so frustrated. I wish I could say he would never have another stroke. I wish he didn't have to have MAJOR surgery...twice.

It's not fair. But we were still chosen. He was chosen. I will make the best of this. Most of the time. But today, I just need to be angry. Tomorrow, I will go on fighting.

Moyamoya Sucks.

3 comments:

Kristin said...

Sorry you're having such a hard day. Distract yourself - Take the kiddos out for ice cream or something :)

Lacey said...

Moyamoya does suck, and you have every right to be angry sometimes!

Emily said...

So sorry you are having a tough day. You have the right to be angry. I pray that you have a better day tomorrow...